Thursday, July 3, 2014

Reflection on college acceptances/rejections

Today i didnt get into my dream school, UC Berkeley. 
Well you know what, here's some hopefully motivation for everyone else.
So fucking what. What? I said it. I know its hard to believe ANYONE that says "your college doesnt define you & what you're capable of, etc". Yeah, they're right but we all know damn well its hard to listen when you're hurting. When you're in pain. When you think of all the "I could of done this, I could of done that". All the thinking on reasons why you got didnt get in & others did. Comparing yourself. Degrading yourself. Looking at yourself in such a negative way. I can say I understand & know exactly where you're coming from. That dark place full of pain and hurt and regrets and questions. Was I not good enough? Was I not smart enough? Was I not that involved? Etc. Im not here to tell you to stop crying over rejections, cos shit im still crying. Im not telling you to build a bridge and get over it, cos im definitely not. But, all i can say is that its not the end of the world. Hell yeah it feels like you wanna die and fall off the face of the earth after the rejections, especially from your dream school. But what now? Theres really no one that can tell you to stop crying and complaining becase THEY dont KNOW how you feel even if they got rejected too. Theres a reason for everything right? Theres a reason why you're upset or crying. Those people dont understand or feel the significance a certain college had to you. They dont know you like you do. They dont know what you want like you do. They dont know what you look for in a college like you do. Im not saying dont listen to them because those people are being great friends & trying to help you, advise you, motivate you, pick you off of your feet and help you move forward because they want you to be happy & care about you. Im saying, dont feel like its the end of the world. We all say that we feel like it is, I say it all the time, but we cant go back. We cant fix things. We cant rewind and go back into the past. Whether you got into the school you wanted or not, you have to make a choice. Itll be hard because it may not be ideal, but you have to make a choice & move forward. Theres no rush, you have around a month. But really look at the schools you got into in a brighter light. Look at the pros. Not the cons. Or else youll go no where. Think, "Will I be happy here?" Honestly, YOU WILL BE HAPPY. You're not gonna be miserable wherever you go, unless YOU CHOOSE to be. Thats your choice so its on you how you want college to be. As cliche and repetitive as this may sound "College is what you make of it". It is. It's what WE make of it. Dont let a TITLE (UC, CSU, PRIVATE, CC) define you. ITS A MF TITLE. It's not who you are. You can go anywhere and still have a great time as long as you choose to. I can name all colleges all over the place, & in my perspective no one is more smarter or more successful than someone else just cause of the title of the school they go to. You can be as equally intelligent and a world changer just as the person who got into your dream school, you just didnt get in & they did. Thats the only difference. As depressing as it sounds of not getting in, that doesnt mean you cant achieve more, be more, and do more. And its the degree, its how hard you work, its your efforts, time, dedication & motivation to be successful. Dont think that just cause you didnt get anywhere you go autopilot for the rest of your life and say "Eff grades, I give up on being involved, why even bother trying etc". CAUSE THAT IS BULLSHIT. Sorry to be blunt, but dont give up on yourself & your potential. Dont give up on what you've been doing and your passions because of not getting into a particular school. Dont just rage quit. If you want to, go for it, I dont encourage it, but its your life choice. TAKE WHAT YOU HAVE AND MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT. Suck it up. Trust me, I know to those of you who are close to me, Ill be sad for pretty long, but that doesnt mean ill give up & just sit back & say eff everything. I have to make a decision in may& whatever that is, I plan on making the best of it & you should too. Complain & cry all you want because Ill do it with you, but sooner or later we'll have to stop, make a decision & realize that we've got to move forward, continue to strive for success, make the best of what we have & look at things in a brighter more optimistic perspective. You're amazing, lol cheesy, cliche, but yeah you are so fricken fabulous. Keep doing you, keep loving you, keep being you. Maybe I'll get a career as a motivational speaker... LOL.

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