Blocked by Emotions.

Depression.
Hurt.
Upset.
Overwhelmed.

These are a few words of evidently strong emotions that can take over a person entirely. Once one of these emotions takes over someone's mind, body, heart & soul... sometimes it seems like there's no turning back. Then and there, at that moment, these negative and strong emotions poisons someone to an extent where it could potentially scar and hurt someone for who knows how long.

From experience, feeling the emotions like the stated above, I sometimes feel hopeless, miserable, emotionless, speechless, and sometimes I feel like I want everything to end, and want all my problems to just disappear, or I should just disappear.

Sounds depressing right?

As bad as it is, it's okay. It's okay to feel this way. It's okay to feel like everything hurts, you just want to cry your eyes out, and you just feel like laying on the floor hugging yourself, wanting the day to end already. It's okay to cry to the point where it feels like you can't breathe and you've used an entire tissue box. It's okay to do something that will make you feel better, whether it's eating your emotions away, taking a walk, or even just going to sleep. It's okay to feel all these negative emotions and thoughts. What? You'd probably think I'm wrong. I'm not saying it's GOOD, I'm just saying it's okay.

It's natural, it's part of life, it's human nature. Everyone has these types of emotions so as miserable as you feel, you really aren't alone and never have to go through anything alone. If we didn't have these types of emotions how would we learn form it, grow from, become stronger, and so much more. I'm not trying to praise negativity and terrible emotions, but what I am trying to say is that having these emotions, situations, and problems can be beneficial because they can help you grow as a person, help you learn lessons, help you learn from your mistakes, and push you to move forward. Not everyone can be happy every single day, well that's just life dude. Of course you want to avoid situations and emotions like this, but if it does arise in your life, don't take it as if God is punishing you and you deserve the worse, all the pain possible.

I've been in that dark light, and I don't want to go back.

I've been in that place where I never wanted to see another day because I felt like every single day was another chapter of hell. Every page that turned in my life, felt like a never ending story where I'm the main character and every day I'd encounter problems that would get worse and worse and there seemed to be no solution or no end. Every battle would knock me down, and I felt lost and couldn't find the strength to overcome these problems and get back up again.

However, as time has gone by, I've learned from it. I've learned and benefited from overcoming problems, getting rid of negative aspects of my life, and by taking negative energy, creating it into positive energy, and having a better and healthier outlook on life. It took a damn long time, but it's okay. Nothing's wrong with you if it takes a while to "get better", but as long as you try and are fully willing to "get better" and allow the positivity to enter your life again, then things will actually improve.

This post is called "Blocked by Emotions" because it's something I really had to reflect on in my past. When I became upset, dealt with something terrible, upsetting, depressing, and so on, I seemed to always find myself shutting the world out. Shutting out people that cared for me, or if anything I just made sure no one knew something was wrong, and I was secretly hurting inside. I'd avoid making contact with anyone, and I'd just lay in my room and sulk in my feelings and tears, to the point where I almost became emotionless. Like a rock, literally. Point being, is that that was such a bad time. What was I thinking? Blocking people out because of my shitty emotions wasn't getting me anywhere which lead to another shitty day, more shitty emotions, and just everything feeling like shit. What I did was allow my emotions to take over me. It got the best of me. It flooded my mind, heart, soul, and even my body. When I allowed these negative emotions to poison me, I would get sick, and become so mentally and physically unhealthy and unstable. What. Was. I. Doing?

There became a point in my life where I decided that I could be strong, there's some strength in me, I am strong. I am. No doubt. Everyone is. There's a bump or two in the road every now and then, but it doesn't mean you aren't strong. I remember so clearly that I'd always tell myself "I'm not strong, I'm not strong. I just want to be sad forever". and such outrageous things like that. And little did I know, I was beyond wrong.

Cliche, but how else can one say it? YOU ARE STRONG. You have the strength. The mental capacity. The willpower. The fight. The courage. You have YOU. That's a list to name a few characteristics on why you can get through this, and anything and everything. Like I said, it's OKAY, to have those shitty days and feelings, but don't let your emotions block you out from so much more. From feeling better. From supportive people. From numerous resources. From positivity. From allowing yourself to be in touch with the stronger, better version of you. The moment you allow your heart, mind, soul and body to be controlled by WEAK STUPID DUMBASS EMOTIONS, is one of the moments you slowly contribute to losing yourself. If you lose yourself, who will save you? RHETORICAL QUESTION, OBVIOUSLY ITS YOU. Save yourself. It took me a while to get the hang of not sulking, being mopey and feeling like poop, but that doesn't mean I didn't learn from it, and accept my problems, and move forward.


We're humans who face all types of emotions, but we feel all these different emotions to experience different things. Good or bad, they are all stepping stones, learning lessons, ups and downs, and ways to help you grow, develop, and become a better person day in and day out.

Block out the bad emotions, and bring in the positivity.